As an adult, I've realized that I am a beautiful person. I am blessed to have an amazing group of friends who I'll carry with me to the grave, and who would do anything for me. I honestly don't know where I'd be without them. Those beautiful women are my friends because they like me for who I am. They gave me a chance....they put up with my good, bad and ugly and forgive me my faults. And the best part is - we communicate like adults when there are problems.
It's amazing to sit here and realize that I still carry the scars of rejected friendship that were made back in junior high, and some still feel fresh. I still try too hard sometimes to be liked or accepted, and I still hurt when I feel rejected or left out. And recently I've found myself surrounded by the topic of female friendships again. Most recently, a personal situation that hurt my feelings.
I had to take a deep breath, and remember that I'm no longer that awkward, prepubescent girl that needs to change to make friends and feel better about myself. I also don't want to be a part of any clique that goes around behind other women's backs say/do hurtful things. I've learned from past friendships, and I am a better person for it.
At the end of the day, we are all women, and we are all supposed to be there for one another. Thankfully I've finally grown enough to recognize the difference between those who are true, and those who aren't. My old friendship scars may never heal, but thankfully the true friends I do have make me realize what true friendship is.
